Adventure is in my blood. Change is in my bones. Outside and in, I crave these two things. So, God asking me to live in a van and travel the states, while a sacrifice, is not totally outside my wheelhouse.
Because my life has changed so many times throughout the years this lifestyle change is just one to add to the list. Definitely not one I saw coming nor planned for, but when you say here I am Lord you better be ready! Haha. On this request I believe he took the wanderlust he created in me and is using it.
What I did not prepare for nor see coming is a life of speaking engagements and book promotions. That I do not have in my blood or bones. Yikes! These things are definitely outside of my wheelhouse!
As I have said before it is not the public speaking that scares me. It is not being afraid of the stories I so transparently share in the book. But something has had me afraid and semi-running from doing those things. Justifying it all along the way these last months with all the other important “kingdom work” I was doing.
I have had an interior battle going on with getting out there and selling myself. So, I procrastinated as long as I could on returning calls and emails. Over the last week, in typical God-like fashion for my obstinate spirit, I have been bombarded with messages from various sources that I had to quit running.
I defeated this lie and made a change in my thought process. I am not selling myself. For that matter I am not selling anything. I am merely telling my stories as a light to those who come to see and hear what God has done. Goliath down and time to move forward on the path of promotion.
Just like in my speaking, I do so with confidence because of who I am in Christ. I am moving forth in that same confidence knowing I have a story to share. Luke 8:15 (NIV) “No one lights a lamp and hides it in a clay jar or puts it under a bed. Instead, they put it on a stand, so that those who come in can see the light.”